Well the last few days have been very very productive for me. I am making a movie and finally getting my t-shirt idea off the ground, and i couldn't be more excited. I dont want to jinx it yet, but watch this space as i will be telling you more about it as time goes on. I dont want it to fail before it begins.
One of my best mates Kym came over last night. We had the most awesome chat. We have been best mates for nearly 10 years, and through stupidity on both sides we drifted quite far apart. He went through a marriage breakdown, and had some pretty massive issues. It's good to see after all the shit we have been through, he is still my homie.
We were chatting about the funny things in life. What we thought was the end of the world in high school for example, is now so god damn funny that we laugh about it so much. Hes finally sorted his life out, and i am so proud of him. I just wish sometimes that i could do the same. I'll get there.
I cannot stop thinking about this new idea i have. I really want to tell everyone, but at the same time i do not want to set myself up for failure. If this works though, it will make me a very happy man. Rob is a champion, he helps me with these ideas so much, he always supports me and i cannot wait to work with him in a lot more ways (There was a massive hint there!!)
Came to start thinking about life in general, and have to say that things aren't all as happy as i want them. Thought i would be settled down with a kid or 2 by now, have my own house and be loved by someone special. This hasn't happened, and looks like it won't for some time. Kinda over being alone. MY little brother gets married in 2 weeks, with a kid on the way and i am so jealous of him. I want that. I always have wanted that.
Anyway what can you do. Probably a good thing that it hasnt happened yet. Everytime i get close to someone in a relationship, i fuck it up anyway. Maybe i should turn gay?? Might be easier?? Shame i'm not gay actually.
Gotta hate these reflective moments in life where you second guess everything that you are/will ever be. I think i might go to the pet store and buy a lot of cats.
James out.
